Monday, December 18, 2006

Writing mails ...

I have noticed a very peculiar attitude amongst people while analysing written mails. Its just that when I try to write mails following all the principles of good writing - in English - people get an instinct that I am trying to be formal with them. This has happened many-a-times, and even if I am in a very jolly mood, then it seems to them that I am in a very serious mood. It has left me with no choice at all. I really feel rediculous as to what should I be doing??

I wonder many-a-times, as whether should I stop writing by using the conventions defined, and just follow the normal cozy style of language - the creepy chat language??

Whenever I've written mails in such a fashion, it is most likely that I do get a reply from the other end, else I have to wait a lot ... Gosh!

It really ponders me whether the way one writes, ever affect what one wanted to convey or convey one's mood! And not really the style of writing, rathar the spell check and the proper grammar. Be formal in writing or jus b in4mal?

Its just that Life is beautiful and I have to understand a lot, mysteries are endless here in this life, the more it is solved, the better it is for me and others!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Repeating his words ...

Yesterday, I had missed an article - the Cosmic Uplink at the ET - on "Toughness within, manifested without" which a friend of mine repeatedly reminded me throughout the day to have a glance on it, Thanks to her!!

The author, K Vijayaraghavan, has emphasized that one has to be strong enough from within one's own self, and more importantly has to be truthful and loyal as well. He has rightly pointed out that, one should never ever be so cruel and so hasty that one forgets how to forgive? Wherein forgiveness is the most beautiful way of living life! ...

... and unless we actually master the art of forgiving, we shall hardly know the way in which we are heading towards! Moreover, hatred should not be long enough to sustain within one's heart. Actually, where does it lead to ?? Nowhere, and absolutely nowhere!!

Its just that we tend to take ourselves bound by our ego and thats the most disgusting part of our life. And also, the most toughest part today is that, we dont accept our mistakes and don't seek forgiveness, maaf karnaa toh durr ki baat hai, pehle hum maafi maangna toh seekh le !!

In the third para he has - in specific - said the most perfect thing! He briefs what and how should we react to circumstances when we become big (not in size, but in popularity!) and famous - and in fact - when we become one in thousands, he says, we should also remember that we can only be one in thousands, when we are amongst them, and even after being one of them, we have to take each one of them, together along with us.

Quoting him, "talk with the crowd and keep your virtue,/ Or walk with kings — nor lose the common touch." We have to be humble and down to earth, the perfect lesson for the day!

The next para, reminds me about what my friend Sonam used to say me during college days and thats what she repeated to me while she wrote a testimonial for me. She wrote that whenever I am in any difficulty or get frustrated, then I should just say a "Oh!" ... and simply carry on ... !!

Great thoughts to keep in mind, that are gradually inspiring my mind and hope it does get!!

Monday, December 11, 2006

Thinking Big ...

Discussion with Sasi Sir today has made one thing - some sort of - clear as to what is Thinking Big?

Before that I would like to correlate it with a different person, he is the COO (Administration) of Syntel India Inc. (I am unable to recall his name!). I met him while I was the Amity SIFE Team Leader and had been to Mumbai in the Mid of June, 2006.

Our team had been here to participate at the final stage (in India) i.e. at the National level, wherein we had to compete with the best B-Schools in India (such as the IIM's, NMIMS, SP Jain and many more). We had done five projects which were to serve the people of the Thar Desert in Rajasthan in having supporting them to build their basic infrastructure, create economic opportunities, improving habitation etc. Our team (to our surprise) was the team 1 in the 1st slot.

It was this person who was our judge, all this happened on 18th June in the Morning, and on 19th Evening during the closing dinner, he came up to me while I was dining, and was explaining me and my team as in where we were wrong and missed the chance by certain mistakes else we would have been representing India at the International Level.

He briefly explained me that our projects and the work which we had done was excellent but we lacked one basic instinct, and that was nothing - and in fact everything - but Thinking Big!

He said me that I had given actual facts and figures - in terms on goals - that were achievable in the near future but I could not convey my long term goals, and insisted me to get to think big, and then only, I would be able to achieve it.

But today, I had a discussion with Sasi Sir regarding my TCOM evaluation sheet and guess what this blog had let him know about the problem - not really! - that I was facing. It was good to discuss with him, as I came to know wherein I had been wrong.

But the actual mistake which I had done was that I was unable to convey what were the actual steps that I was going to take and it was - perhaps - the language that was misleading him, and he said me one thing, over and again that I had the big picture in my mind and was focusing on the smaller issues that are actually negligible. (I may not be able to forget the Nobel Prize and the Classroom example which he gave me!)

All I needed was to bridge up this gap in a very coherent manner. Thinking big not only implied that we should think big - in terms of goals, or targets etc.. - and not the smaller things as well, but to actually link up the gap as to what is to be achieved and how it is to be achieved! Think Big Ankit, Think Big ... !!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

The Effect ... which a smile can leave!

Yesterday, I was feeling very happy as I was about to meet my parents, and was keenly awaiting through out the day for the clock to tick to 17:30 hrs. as that was the time when the bus - here at CDAC - was about to leave. Every now and then, I was having a look at my wrist watch, and awaiting for the time to just pass on, as soon as possible - Its always tough to be away from the family.

But all off a sudden, when I reached the security desk to handover my room keys, I was in fact handed my TCOM Project Proposal Feedback Sheet and that was no less than a shock for me, as I was awarded the most unexpected feedback which did let me go down - on my morale - or I lacked patience all off a sudden, started reacting in a weird manner!

I was looking for a freely and easily available PC in the lab. such that I could log-on to Moodle and post my request for a small discussion, but twas' again, a hard luck for me, the server wasn't working functioning as desired.

It was a bunch of mixed feelings that started emanating within me and I couldn't think anything further in the right direction. I was in fact somehow glad that the time of the bus, to leave the campus had come and I got myself into the bus and just went on.

Through out my way, despite of feeling sleepy, I couldn't even have a nap just because of the effect of TCOM which made me feel, what I was actually feeling - Bad! I then thought that if such a senior person has given me a feedback, then it must mean something or the other, as their experience might be showing me what I shouldn't have done.

And then, along my way, when the bus crossed Sion and started moving towards Bandra, it got stuck in the traffic jam (not new here, but twas' new yesterday) and as I peeked out of my window, I noticed a very small girl, who might have been at the age of seven (I believe!) who was working at a shop which deals with iron rods, and her face was covered by a layer of dust, her blonde hairs were as if they were coated (or dyed) with golden dust, her small frock was filled with rust and dark patches of oil and varied greases, her hands were skinny and very dark.

She had kept herself engaged with a long thread (quite much long for her!) which was very clear from the sides (and straight) and the mess was when there was a knot and which was mixed in a random fashion which looked no less than a spider's web.

The tyres of the bus were just about to roll further as the other vehicles were clinching ahead very slowly and maintaining the turtle's pace, and the girl was still stuck with her knot and there was no one out there who could spare some time and support her to get rid-off a thing that was bugging her for ... I don't know how long?

As the bus moved ahead, my eyes were fixed at her muddy face, whose eyes were engaged to resolve the knot, but I don't know why? Why did she want to solve it? What were the circumstances that led her to be as she was yesterday? Why was she not able to attract any other person's attention towards her? Why? Why? ... ?

But all off a sudden, I could notice that she was able to grab a piece of thread and circulate it along her fingers, and then ... came the most beautiful thing which had relieved me ... Yes, twas' her smile, the smile which came after a few seconds, the smile which I could see at her face after merely moving the thread amongst her fingers, the smile which was not expected by me, as I was puzzled by questions ...

... twas' that smile which made me feel happy, yesterday, it made me feel very good, and it, in fact relieved me from the thoughts that were revolving around me! I was indeed feeling better than what I was feeling just before the bus got stuck in that traffic jam.

Then I reached Bandra to catch a local to Goregaon and that tense feeling had left my mind for a quite long and cherished the rest of the evening with parents back at home.

It was today, that the server started working as desired, and I was then able to submit my post, after discussing it with my friends.

I was wondering - as - Was that a test for my patience? or was that to teach me not to over-react to circumstances?

Yes, Indeed twas' and this is what I was supposed to learn yesterday! Life is indeed a book, teaching new lessons each day!

But what happened to the girl? I don't know! But the questions that came to my mind regarding her is an unsolved mystery and may be it shall remain to be ...

Twas' certainly the effect, the effect which TCOM couldn't have on me for long, but twas' the effect .... which a smile had left on me!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

With rains ... life is indeed more beautiful!

Today, while I was moving away from the campus to have the Sandwiches (they are really tasty!) which I usually have these days, - generally, after the supper - I happened to call up my friend who is at Noida these days.

While discussing certain key issues, about his decisions which he shall soon be taking, and which shall definitely bring a change to his Life, he suddenly happened to ask me "Ankit, Does the image at your orkut profile convey the happenings of the past?" and I could not resist myself and had to say "Yes, Indeed, You've got it right!"

We didn't discuss about it any further, as he knew that it would cause the clouds to rain, once again, and I sincerely Thank him for not going any further!

It reminds me about the days that have passed, - I don't feel any good to mention those days - wherein I enjoyed the Spring and then the Monsoon Festives at their best. There was no such rain, which didn't leave me the way I was!

Every drop of Water, which was poured from the sky by the Almighty was only to cover my rains - the tears rolling down from my cheeks to my lips and then the chin, and then ... (I don't know!) - and I was glad to having enjoy it.

I still remember those days, wherein my friends cared for me (they still do) and time and again asked me to get myself under the shed, but I being a bit arrogant by nature, didn't respond to them. I know they felt bad about it, but still they tried their best!

I can recall the words of my close friend, who once said to this very friend of mine, "Usse bheegney de, woh teri toh kya, kisi ki bhi nahin sunegaa! Jab bimaar padegaa tab hi ussey akal aayegi!" ... Shaayad woh akal aaj bhi nahin aayee hai!

Anywayz, I can go on, and on, and on ... But yeah, how did this stick to my mind all off a sudden??

It all happened, when I met my very very old friend Varsha at orkut, I was indeed very glad and happy to get in touch with her after a long time (not that long, but still!), and guess what?? ... the surprise to me was, even she felt the same!

We were together with each other, while we were about twelve, - yeah, I know we were just kids by then, and are still today! - and I happened to find from her profile that she too loves rains and I couldn't - once again - resist myself from updating my profile.

I am indeed passionate about rains, those rains which one loves to enjoy when one is alone, those rains which leaves one, with happiness (or sadness), those rains which makes one's heart feel much more comfortable, as ever before, ... as with rains ... life is indeed more beautiful!!
Super Computing or Social Computing ??

Before I joined CDAC (formerly NCST), I used to wonder what would its punch line actually mean? I thought it would be something really high and related to rocket sciences or gene technologies where computing applications might be being built for high-end real time applications.

But since I've joined this place, read more at my LJ ...

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

My LJ Association ...

I always wanted to learn a lot from those who have taught me something or the other, and as being a natural wanderer looking for something different, I came across a different website (or I don't know what to call it!) through Sasi Sir's web page links - - and moreover guess what its been Open Source - I believe Sasi Sir is a big fan of Open Source, there are many other reasons too.

So, finding it something new, I happened to open an account on it, and I was also shocked to see that the first and the only reply that I received was indeed Sasi Sir's - it seems that he is encouraging me to use it at my best - I shall try my best Sir!

And yeah, here is my web link towards LJ or should I call it as LiveJournal ...
She Speaks ...

Two days back, I somehow got to view Arundhati Roy's Video, where in she has expressed very beautiful thoughts and has expressed her views on how we should and more importantly why we should fight for our constitutional rights and also fight against wrong being done to Humanity and Mankind.

She speaks that everyday lots and lots of humans are being killed on a vast scale, just to protect one country's (America's) Fuel needs and to have a stable economic and majorily supreme America. I am not against America, but still I feel there shouldn't be one power ruling the world, if thats' the case, then it has to be only Will Power and nothing more than that!

Believe me friends, despite of your busy schedule, do take out one hour of yours and have a look at it. I can say you that, you'll appreciate it at its best! Have a dekho ....

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Living Beyond Life ...

I had always wondered whether to live beyond life had any relation to being spiritual or much more beyond that!??

But today, my curiosity was very beautifully handled by Kanchan - she is one such person who I've come across since two days and is one who really thinks and perceives life in a very beautiful manner (this is what I could perceive from her blog and her testimonials at Orkut).

The title at her blog "Living beyond life..................." re-ignited the spark and after reading it, I could only say that living beyond life is not only being spiritual (or in fact not even being spiritual) rather to overcome our ignorance of what we are and where we are heading for??

She has rightly put it as Living life selflessly is the key to living beyond life and is subjected to our interests and understandings towards life.

Its always up to us, So, we need to think beyond what we are thinking, in fact to live life beyond what it is today!!
Have Lunch With God ...

A really beautiful one that touched me!

A little boy wanted to meet God. He knew it was a long trip to where God lived, so he packed his suitcase with a bag of potato chips and a six-pack of root beer and started his journey.

When he had gone about three blocks, he met an old woman. She was sitting in the park, just staring at some pigeons. The boy sat down next to her and opened his suitcase. He was about to take a drink from his root beer when he noticed that the old lady looked hungry, so he offered her some chips. She gratefully accepted it and smiled at him.

Her smile was so pretty that the boy wanted to see it again, so he offered her a root beer. Again, she smiled at him. The boy was delighted!

They sat there all afternoon eating and smiling, but they never said a word.As twilight approached, the boy realized how tired he was and he got up to leave; but before he had gone more than a few steps, he turned around, ran back to the old woman, and gave her a hug.

She gave him her biggest smile ever..

When the boy opened the door to his own house a short time later, his mother was surprised by the look of joy on his face. She asked him, "What did you do today that made you so happy?"

He replied, "I had lunch with God." But before his mother could respond, he added, "You know what? She's got the most beautiful smile I've ever seen!"

Meanwhile, the old woman, also radiant with joy, returned to her home. Her son was stunned by the look of peace on her face and he asked, "Mother, what did you do today that made you so happy?" She replied! "I ate potato chips in the park with God." However, before her son responded, she added, "You know, he's much younger than I expected."

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around. People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime! Embrace all equally. Have lunch with God ....... all it takes is....chips!
The Power of E-mails...

While I check-in my mailbox and read articles here and there, and also the various blogs which I get my hands on to these days, I come across many inspiring thoughts and one day I had decided to send such thoughts and stories to everyone who ever is in my address book, and guess what, all these mails were appreciated and cherished by everyone.

In fact, there had been person's with whom I would hardly talk, and just because of my sending mails to them, has brought back end-to-end relationships to a one-to-one!

So, I have now decided to put-up all such stories and thoughts on my blog, such that it could be read by everyone and not being restricted to merely my address book.
My Writings ...

The art of expressing is the most powerful tool and asset available today. I being a bit shy, by nature, feel free and relaxed by expressing myself with a pen and a paper (and these days with a keyboard).

Adding some more, the unsual writing which I carry out, does favour me in bringing out what I actually feel or "yielding my own inner-consciousness". Emotionally, I have just pen-ed down some of my thoughts and have been put-up here at ... !!